You know how people always start off their end-of-the-month posts by saying how fast the month has flown by? And how they can’t believe it’s already June (or whatever month it happens to be)?
This is not one of those posts.
This month has been a tough one for me, filled with work, hustle, and very little play. Looking back on May, I can’t believe all of the exciting, stressful, overwhelming, and amazing things that happened this month.
But we’ll get into all that in just a bit!
At the end of last month I shared with you all of the exciting things that happened in my first month of blogging. I loved writing that post, but this month I wanted to take a bit of a different approach.
My ultimate goal is to be as transparent, authentic, and “real” with you as I possibly can be. And this is the reality: As I moved from “blogger” to “blogger and business owner” this month, things got tougher, busier, and more hectic than I ever anticipated.
The truth is, being a solopreneur (solo business owner) is tough, and it can take a lot out of you. This month has been filled with wins and losses, and I’d like to share a bit of both with you today.
STRUGGLES IN MY SECOND MONTH AS A FULL-TIME BLOGGER
Booking and working with your first few clients is always scary, no matter what kind of work you do. I was lucky enough to work with my first 3 clients in May, and I got to experience what it’s like to have a career where your performance directly correlates to your ability to pay the bills.
Although it might seem like I have it all together, the truth is that a lot of the time, I’m just winging it. And I think a lot of us are! But when you have people turning to you as an authority or as their “coach”, it gets scary and becomes easy to second guess yourself.
“Do I really know enough to be teaching other people?”
“What if they’re not happy with my work and ask for a refund?”
These are very real thoughts that ran through my head this month.
But you know what? The more you do something and the more you put yourself out there, the more your confidence will grow. Diving in head-first and getting your hands dirty is the quickest way to improve both your skills and your confidence. I learned that first-hand this month.
2. Never feeling like I’ve done “enough”
I have a feeling this is something a lot of entrepreneurs struggle with.
When your work ethic is the only thing landing you clients, making sales, and securing a paycheck – how can you reach a point where you ever feel like you’ve done “enough”?
When you set your own schedule and hours, when do you call it quits for the day? Do you take weekends off? How many hours do you work each week?
These questions were a big struggle for me this month. I’m just getting my business “feet” underneath me, so it’s hard to feel satisfied with how much work I’ve done or what I’ve accomplished in a day. It also seems like whenever I check one thing off my to-do list, another 5 things get added (anyone else feel that way?)
One of the ways I’m trying to tackle this problem next month is to force myself to focus more on the “big picture” when it comes to my blog and business goals. I’d like to tackle my work-related tasks starting with those that are most heavily related to my big picture goals, and then move on to the smaller, less-related tasks after that. If you have any other tips for this, please let me know!
3. Turning off
Oh BOY was this a struggle for me this month.
If I thought my over-thinking, over-analyzing bedtime brain was bad before, it’s NOTHING compared to now.
There are nights when I lie in bed for 3 or 4 hours, stirring over everything that went on that day, what’s happening the next day, what I need to get done for my blog, what post I’m going to write next…
Oh, and I wonder if so-and-so ever got around to emailing me back? I better check my email … (reaches for cell phone at 2 in the morning).
This inability to wind down and turn off has made for a very sleep-deprived month. On the one hand, I love that I’m doing work I’m so passionate and excited about. But on the other hand, I just wish my brain would shut the heck up sometimes.
4. Feeling overwhelmed + like I can’t keep up
I used to think that when I had a full 40 hours a week to devote to my blog, things would be gravy. Yet what used to seem like endless amounts of time, now goes by in the blink of an eye. When did the days get so much shorter!?
I constantly feel like there are never enough hours in the day to get everything done. Part of that stems from the “never feeling like I’ve done enough” thing I mentioned earlier, and the other part stems from the fact that if I’m succeeding in one area, it feels like I’m failing in another.
For example, I wrote 4 guest posts this month (yay!) but traffic on my own site was lacking. I worked with my first few clients (yay!) but didn’t manage to write as many new blog posts as I would’ve liked.
I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to find the perfect balance. Even just 2 months into my blogging journey, I can already see myself hiring an assistant to help me manage my business in the future. How crazy is that?
SUCCESSES IN MY SECOND MONTH OF FULL-TIME BLOGGING
Let’s move on to the good stuff, shall we?
1. Working with my first few (amazing) clients
Yes, I struggled to feel confident when it came to client work this month, but I was also incredibly blessed to work with some super amazing ladies. There’s really nothing better than hearing glowing reviews and recommendations from your clients — it makes all those feelings of uncertainty and inadequacy disappear.
To the lovely Sara, Brittany, and Nikki — thank you for being my firsts, and for being so wonderful!
2. Learning to use Adobe Illustrator
This month I made the investment in an Adobe Illustrator ecourse. Canva was working for me for a while, but I knew I needed to step up my design game.
I’m about halfway through the course and loving it so far. I’m the furthest thing from what you’d call “artistic”, so when I can create something that looks halfway decent, I’m pretty proud of myself.
Now that I’m learning the ropes with Illustrator, I’ve been slowly re-doing some of the graphics on my website and social media accounts. I’ve been working on creating blog post graphics and Pinterest images that stand out and will be recognized as “mine”. (How am I doing so far?)
It’s still a work in progress, but I think things will only get better as I continue working through the last few weeks of the course. If you’d like to learn a more professional design program, I’d highly highly recommend Adobe Illustrator and the AI Masterclass.
Let me just start off by saying that I am NOT a gym person. As in, before this month, I had only been to the gym once in my entire life, and that was for a free trial session.
That isn’t to say I don’t exercise, or that I don’t like exercising. I’ve just never felt comfortable exercising in front of a bunch of strangers, which is why I avoid gyms at all costs.
Two months ago I moved into a new condo building that has the most AMAZING gym (overlooking the pool, might I add. Pinch me). And I’m happy to say I’ve been hitting up the gym lately!
Along with my inability to “turn off” and get a decent night’s sleep this past month, I’ve also gone through periods of waking up at 6 AM and not being able to fall back asleep. So what do I do?
I drag my sorry butt down to the gym.
Want a sneak peek at my daily routine as a full-time blogger? Here’s the latest, most updated version!
So babe, those were some of my biggest struggles and successes from my second month. I’d love to hear what areas you’ve been struggling when it comes to your own blog and business, and where you could use some words of encouragement and motivation!
I’d also LOVE to hear all about your exciting and well-deserved successes this month, so let me know in the comments everything amazing that’s happened for you this month!